I'm the friend that will straight up come and ask you
This paranoia strikes at church too. Lately, ALOT...and yesterday the sermon was about the tongue. I almost groaned OUT LOUD when pastor started on the topic. He covered it all too...Gossip, talking too much, not thinking before you speak. Ouch...it stung...and it should have. I'm guilty in all of those areas...it's something I need to work on. Like he said at the end (referring to James' analogy of the tongue being like the ship's rudder). If you are in Christ you don't just let the ship go wildly about...you instead GRAB the WHEEL...and learn to control it! So, is what I call paranoia...really conviction? Is it a good thing or a bad thing?
I looked up the definition of paranoia. I was surprised by what I found...Paranoia is an unfounded or exaggerated distrust of others, sometimes reaching delusional proportions. Paranoid individuals constantly suspect the motives of those around them, and believe that certain individuals, or people in general, are "out to get them."
Ah, see....now there's the truth. I want to be paranoid...cuz that's better than dealing with what makes me paranoid. I don't trust the motives of my teachers, friends, and er, pastor. I'm not trusting God either...ouch.
AND there's a reason for this...it's easier...although uncomfortable. Treating it as conviction...and getting it RIGHT...means addressing the SIN in my life. It means trusting God's leading through my friends, pastor and teachers...that if it touches my heart (cutting me to the core) that I need to be sensitive and examine myself. I need to change what needs to be changed.
Allowing myself to remain paranoid is allowing Satan to have a foothold in my heart. It allows me to grow bitter with those I assume are out to get me. It allows me to think ludicrous thoughts
So, now...I'm pasting to my forehead...
THINK TWICE, TALK ONCE!