"Finally, be strong in the Lord and in the strength of his might." Eph. 6:10I've been feeling the intense need for strong coffee and my STRONG Lord's might. I wonder some days if I'm coming or going. I wonder how much is getting through to my Sweet Boobahs. There are good days and bad days. There have been some recent "expressions" from my three year old that made me feel discouraged at first...but the more I thought about it...I realized that he is thinking and processing quite well.
He was horrendous leaving church Wed. night (had to be hauled off the floor...and out like sack of kicking potatoes)...He screamed the entire way home....By the time I got him into bed I was close to tears and barely holding it together. Did I mention Loverbrains was gone on business? Yeah, solo mio! I was praying for him and he wailed, "But I don't want a changed heart!" Indeed. Well, I explained that we are all sinners and we all need a changed heart. The only One that can change his heart is Jesus Christ!
The next day at lunch Emma was singing,
"My heart was black with sin until the Savior came in,
His precious blood I know can wash it white as snow.
And in God's Word I'm told I'll walk on streets of gold.
What a wonderful, wonderful day,
my sins are washed away!"We break into song around here at the drop of a hat...so that was pretty normal. But, Lubby wailed yet again. "I don't wanna die!" Hmmm. Well, I said that we all die. And we either go to heaven or hell. He then wailed, "I wanna red heart." I said I thought he meant white. Then he insisted he wanted a green heart. Oui Vey!
Then last night I was singing his normal lullaby request..."The Heart Song"....
"Change my heart, oh God...make it ever true...
Change my heart, oh God...may I be like you!"He grouched and wailed, "NO, NO, NOOOO...I don't want that song...I want Jesus LOVES me!" I had to smirk...it made me think of how many christians behave...It's what my Dad calls the ala carte approach to God, "I'll take a big serving of the Love, but hold the Justice. And leave the Omniscience on the side. And no Sovereignty - I'm allergic to Sovereignty other than my own."
Yeah, so pray for me. That I will remember where my strength comes from...There is a fight on for this little 3 year old's soul. I pray that God would mercifully save him...and soon!
"I lift up my eyes to the hills. From where does my help come? My help comes from the Lord, who made heaven and earth." Psalm 121:1-2