Monday, September 26, 2011

Are you shining or shaking?

"Anything that comes across our path and puts us in difficulty, at once shows whether we believe in Him and trust in Him, by our response and reaction to it.  We must never allow ourselves to be agitated and disturbed whatever the circumstances because to do so implies a lack of faith, a lack of trust, a lack of confidence in our blessed Lord and God."  ~D. Martyn Lloyd-Jones

I've come a long way in the area of letting these agitations show.  I was thinking, as I re-read this quote, wouldn't it be so great if I could control those stomach knotting, hands freezing, shaking knees responses...the subtle and often unobservable.  Cuz, that's the stuff that God still sees.  Even when I'm able to pull off looking confident...He knows that I'm not wholly trusting Him.  I don't want to just appear...I want to really BE.

This is such a tall order...I think sometimes I respond in agitation and disquiet simply as an expected response.  For example, when Loverbrains is gone people expect me to be upset, tired and, I gladly oblige. more.  True, I miss him and I'm not going to pretend I don't...but I'm a strong woman when he's by my side and equally when he's not.  He lovingly provides for me while he's gone...and faithfully corresponds and communicates with us too.  Besides the BIG POINT...that God hasn't changed position one teensy bit.  He's my rock solid foundation.  How dare I behave as if it's anything less.

On Sunday we learned about Jehovah Shammah...The Lord is there.  At first, I thought it was going to be all fluffy and lovey..."Aw, God's there...don't be afraid little sheepies."  I was surprised to find that it connected to a much larger part of God's character.  He is ALL-POWERFUL, ALL-KNOWING, and EVERYWHERE PRESENT...and because he's with every believer there is no reason for discontent.  GOD IS THERE...he will never leave me or forsake me...

"The LORD is my light and my salvation; whom shall I fear? The LORD is the stronghold of my life; of whom shall I be afraid?"  Psalm 27:1

When people ask me how I'm doing...I don't want to give the conditioned or expected response...I want to give the response that shows that I am placing my faith, trust and confidence in my Jehovah Lord who is there...guiding me through every trial and storm, as well as the sunny, Fall days.

I want to be a brightly shining light...a spot of brightness that makes those in darkness come close and inquire...Why are you shining??

"Do all things without grumbling or questioning, that you may be blameless and innocent, children of God without blemish in the midst of a crooked and twisted generation, among whom you shine as lights in the world, holding fast to the word of life."  Philippians 2:14-16


Barbara H. said...

That's one thing I had to learn when my husband traveled a lot, too -- though the Lord uses him to help keep me safe and provide for me, it's the Lord who ultimately does that whether my husband is there or not.

Love your title here! I tend to shake first (as you said, in ways no one but God can see) and then work through to shining/trusting. By God's grace may I lessen that transition time or eliminate it altogether.

Fonda said...

Jehovah Shammah...the Lord is there. I am learning this very lesson AGAIN. Isn't it amazing how He teaches us as He takes us a little deeper into the truths already revealed?

Great post!

Susan said...

Great words to think on! I used to be a wreck when my husband was away too. I can say I'm not like that anymore . . . in that area! In other areas, not so much improved! I'm going to chew on the meaning of Jehovah Shammah some more - that was powerful!

Lisa notes... said...

I find your perspective so interesting because it's opposite what many people think. Most people would put on a masquerade that they're fine, when they're not, whereas you feel pressured to act like you're not capable when your hubby is gone, when in reality you are totally fine! (I love when I read blogs and am hit with different views like this!)

Bottom line: we can sometimes alter our responses for "show" but God knows what's in our hearts and it's him we want to please.

So, as you put it so powerfully:

"I don't want to just appear...I want to really BE."

Me too! Thanks for sharing this.