Considering that to most people I am bubbly, energetic and VERY outgoing...I'm not so comfortable with showing the Holy Spirit's outpouring in me...at least in times of worship, public displays of, etc. I was raised in pretty, proper
I'll never forget one time in college, when Jim Cymbala came to Cedarville University. My Dad happened to be there for a pastor's conference. At one point, Cymbala encouraged
And I guess this study is bringing that all back up for me. Although I'm becoming pretty outspoken in my evangelistic quests--trying to encourage others that it can be indeed be done and we live to share another day...I don't get the expected response. Instead of encouragement and joy, I feel like many fellow believers look at me like I'm crazy. Maybe it embarrasses them...or they wish I'd shut up...who knows...but I do know that it's not comfortable being different...and yet I've never been more okay with it.
God sent His Spirit so that believers could sustain a right relationship with Him. He's not satisfied with mechanical obedience. I should know, cuz I'm really really good at mechanical obedience. But that's just it...I don't ever want to be afraid to share or express what God is doing in me. God's Word is meant to set our hearts on fire in a way that we can't possibly hide...so why do I spend so much time worrying about what other people think...and what He thinks last?
"What the disciples wanted was not numbers but an essential quality that would keep them BEING the church God intended. Boldness can only be imparted by the Holy Spirit." ~Jim Cymbala