I always come back from vacation and feel...weird. I feel totally random. I'm fluttering here and there trying to regain some semblance of normal home life again. The coffee we drink on vacation is not as strong as we tend to make (ahem, sorry Papa) and so we load up on super strong when we get home. Maybe that's it...I'm jittery. Well, it's part of that odd feeling below the surface.
But, that's not all of it...it's also the beginning of Fall...and ALL the activities that entails. In particular, church takes off at break neck speed. We're teaching SS together this year (so excited), I'm teaching Wed. night club, singing solos/duets, fall festivals, mini golf, bible studies...etc. etc. I'm not complaining...I LOVE those things. I find summer rather tedious because there isn't a real schedule...but it just takes my breath away...PHEW! On the surface VERY organized...churning and planning below...
And, we have friends moving...and I just hate change. I know, it is God's plan...it will be good for EVERYONE...but it hurts and I don't like it. I understand it perfectly in my head...but God is still comforting my heart. THAT's below the surface churning around in my guts.
Randomly today, I just wanted to say that you need to be examining and dealing with your heart struggles. Admit that you have them, for one thing. I'd like to add that I'm not against "surface shows"...cuz everyone doesn't need to know our business all the time or deal with our emotions. Just make sure that when it's just you...below the surface...that you are right with the Person that sees your heart!!
"The LORD does not look at the things man looks at. Man looks at the outward appearance, but the LORD looks at the heart." I Sam. 16:7