So, in desperation I stayed up to read until I exhausted my brain and caused it to snuff out. I'm nearing the end of Radical by David Platt. This man does NOT pull punches. It hurts my feelings...in a very good way. I laughed out loud at this next bit...until I almost cried...
"In the middle of a Christian culture asking, "How do I find God's will for my life?" I bring good news. His will is not lost. With 1.4 million Bedouins in Algeria who have never even heard the gospel, it makes little sense for us to sit over here asking, "What do you want me to do, God?" The answer is clear. The will of God is for you and me to give our lives urgently and recklessly to making the gospel and the glory of God known among all peoples, particularly those who have never even heard of Jesus. The question, therefore, is not "Can we find God's will? The question is "Will we obey God's will?"
I think this can be as easy as starting in your "moments by moments." I'm not saying that a larger radical change isn't on the way. You should be praying about and considering overseas missions, adoption and drastically down-sizing. But, for many of us, it would be radical enough to just start looking for opportunities and open doors for the gospel right where we are every day...and then WALKING THROUGH THEM.
This book has helped renew my zeal to open my heart and arms to the lost. AND...they are all around (at the library, grocery store, playground, work, play). Yup...I invited a lady I just met at the library over to teach me to knit...so I can teach her to sew/quilt. Which is a hoot...cuz I'm just a beginner...but she'll be here in my house...and I'll be scattering seed like a crazy person. I'm thinking of advertising it...calling it "Bartering Skills"...
No, it's not always comfortable but that's sort of the point. We weren't called to comfortable...we are called to share in His sufferings. I say I want to be like Christ...but he suffered and died for the sins of the world! What are the most terrible things that could happen...embarrassment, upset stomach, angry words. In our country death is highly unlikely...and you probably won't even lose your job without a warning or five.
...I do get butterflies and knots in my tummy...(and not everything is well-received)...but if I don't start where I am...and be faithful in the small things...Why would I expect God to use me for greater things?
“One who is faithful in a very little is also faithful in much, and one who is dishonest in a very little is also dishonest in much." Luke 16:10
* Just so you don't think I was saying we shouldn't risk death...Even death, to the believer, should not be a deterrent to sharing the gospel. "And do not fear those who kill the body but cannot kill the soul. Rather fear him who can destroy both soul and body in hell." Matthew 10:28